"One time, it was an infantry battalion's anniversary and as the (former) wife we were invited. When it was time to go home, my neighbor whom I was supposed to accompany with has walked off. I called her name but she's too far away. I tried to run and called her name BUT something happened. I have to stop from running because I lost my breathing. I can't breath, I thought I am going to die in the grasslands. I remain standing and tried to stay calm as much as possible. I breath in and breath out through my mouth until my breathing was normal."

Yesterday, my husband and I were surprised when a delivery man from 2Go brought 2 TNT boxes. I feel confused and surprised. Who will send us goods in boxes?

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Hi dearies! My hands are full right, now. As I've written in my post before, I am organizing and checking different accounts from different websites. Some of it were suspended for inactivity while other sites are down. I don't have the idea because it's been so long since I've been active. I want to get back to it.

I missed writing the events of  my own life. That’s one particular reason why I blogged. To write what’s on my mind – heartaches, paranoia, depression, echetera. Be it good or bad, it doesn’t matter! Quote and unquote from Meagan Aguilar, “ I have no one to turn to”! Yes, I have no one to turn to except on blogging. I’m not an artist who can turn to the media.   I want to write to express my feelings on how and what I feel but whenever I sat down and face the computer, my mind went blank and asked myself, “Am I going to write about this?”. Depressions bad, I’m not ready. So, instead of writing what’s on my mind, I do other things online.

It’s my big day, yesterday! I was surprised and happy when I saw Google’s doodle on my Firefox browser. Yay, look at that! Google has really made my day. It’s simple but it means more to me. Thank you so much, Google.

The saddest thing is when you want to give but you have nothing to give. You cannot give what you do not have. Be thankful, though, that you are the giver and not the seeker.

1. Moving the remains of my mother – It’s a long time wish! My mother died from cervical cancer. She was buried in Butuan City - year 2009. It’s my brother’s decision.  He lived their before and had a good life but time has changed. He left that place and stayed in Metro Manila for good. While my father stayed in her sister’s house in Iligan City.  Sad to say my mother’s remains was left behind.  That is why I really, really want to moved her to Iligan City where her siblings, nieces and nephews lived.
2. Visiting My Father – I haven’t seen my father for five (5) years. There were grudges but then he is still my father whatever happens. Also, he’s very old now.  He did not have a chance to see, hug and tease my son. That is why I’m longing to visit him, one day, with my son.
3. Annulment – I’m separated and now lives with another man who had given me a son for the first time. I have apprehension in telling the truth for my son’s safety.  Filing for an annulment is very  expensive in the Philippines and there is no divorce. If I am not mistaken, the total cost runs from three hundred thousand pesos (P300,000.00 equivalent to $6,959.16) to five hundred thousand pesos (P500,000.00 equivalent to $11,598.59). Unfortunately, I don’t have that amount.
4. House and Lot – First and foremost, we do not have a house. I am not looking for a big plush; luxury house. I prefer a small bungalow type that I can call my own until I grow old. Why small? When your child marries and leave you behind or pursue a career in another place, we’ll be left behind. If something goes wrong, your child will come back and stay. FYI, we are only allowed to stay and lived in the internet shop provided that we pay the rent, electricity and water consumption.
5. Son’s Education – I want to give him the best education he deserved and finished it. I’ll be supportive in whatever he choose for his life as long as it is for good and his future.
6. Computer and Laptop – I don’t have a computer and laptop. We do not own the computer I use for writing and gaming.  How I wish I have my own to set the settings and customize desktop background and screensaver. I want a laptop if my son want to use the computer.
7. Cellphone – :) I already have a cell phone but I need to upgrade it from the basic. Who wants an Instagram application?! Oh gee, I want, I really do but my cell phone can’t do it. For all I know, it is only applicable to an iPhone or an Android. So, whatever cell phone you can buy for me is okay as long as it has an Instagram application. :)

Oh, my bucket list did not reach number 10. Geeh! As of this time, that is all I can think of but I will update this until it reach to number 10 Important Bucket Lists in my life.

I received a lot of emails saying this name repinned my pin “according to MNSBC it looks like working from home… board”. 

Lovelies, I'm sorry I was not able to update you for three days and half. I have no internet connection that started last Sunday afternoon at around 2pm. I thought it's my husband fault, but I was wrong. The PLDT base in our location was struck by lightning. I'm not surprised because it's raining hard.

Since, we don't have internet for more than three days, we played LAN games to pass the time, though. I am worried because of an important conversation that stop and the contests I promised to join with my blogger friend.

But, thank God, internet connection is up now. Although, it's only few hours left to join the said contest. Better late than never! :) Happy!

I’m sorry, I have a little time in creating a post for this blog in the past weeks. I’ve been busy as a mother of my little boy. He’s very active and needs my care especially when we seek a medical help.

He was hospitalized because of the Urinary Tract Infection. The doctor found out that he needs circumcision to further avoid U.T.I.

And since, it’s summer, we had a chance to accompany the hospital staff in their yearly summer getaway. We went to Malamig Park Resort in Bustos, Bulacan. It’s far but worth it.
Enjoy and have fun this summer!

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How time flies so fast! Two years ago, I gave birth to a boy when the world seems dark…


 

He become the cutest baby boy I’ve ever seen. He had captured everyone’s heart. He wanders around with his contagious laughter. A baby who does not forget to give his smile to everyone he met. The baby who calls me, “Mama”.

After my brother had the BST and “walking” exercise, we went to another building to see the products of Ilog Maria.

I forgot the exact date of my mother's death. I understand that's between March 1 to March 3. It dawned on me, today, why she was in my dream, last night. It's my mothers 4th death anniversary. 


Dearest Mom, 
I'm sorry I forgot about the date when God took you away from us. But, you'll always be remembered and always in our hearts. I love you, Ma!

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We arrived last night, in time to celebrate Valentines day with my husband, Chris! Happy Valentines day, everyone! Enjoy and have fun! Have a great life!

Yes, I experienced it - December, last year. What do you mean by "binat"? Binat is a filipino word coined for relapse. Usually, this is what our folks says especially, if you give birth. Here's an example from an online Tagalog English Dictionary  - "Huwang masyadong magpagod, baka ka mabinat!" Don't tire yourself, you might have a relapse.

I wish I know until when I have the time to rest after miscarriage. I can't wait to lay a hand on our dirty clothes piling high! And yes, I did, the laundry after a week of rest! Next day, I hang all the clothes outside because the weather is hot. After, I've done it, I sat down and my body feel extremely tired.  There is no headache or anything painful. It's only tiredness, I feel. My husband told me to take a rest because I might have a relapse. What I did was sleep the whole day. Then, woke up when it's time for a meal. I made a rest for three days. It's a lazy thing to do but I have to regain back my strength for my son.

How about you? Have you experienced relapse?

Year 2012 for us has a lot of obstacles and breathless trials. My son is sickly, almost every month. He has primary complex – tuberculosis for children. He got dengue and viral infections. Whenever he had a fever, my husband and I cross our fingers that he’ll recover in three days. For toddlers, if it’s more than 3 days, something is not right.


While, I had a miscarriage – the baby was 7 weeks old. She has no heart beat. After 2 weeks, I thought I am okay so I went out and do the laundry. But after, I hung the clothes to dry in the clothes line. I feel so terribly tired that my husband told me to take a rest.  Guess, I have a relapse or “binat”. Is this the exact word?

Even if we had experience these in 2012, it was retracted. We celebrated New Year with my MIL and SIL. In addition, my son is in good health. That is why I am very, very thankful. We faced 2013 with a smile and noise from a trumpet and my son’s playing his toy drum.

I'm so thankful that my family and I, amid the pitfulls in our life, celebrated and welcome 2013 with good health. Most important is my child who welcome it with laughter while watching fireworks.

The first findings is dengue. The nurse informed us after giving him a tourniquet. He told the doctor that tourniquet result is dengue. My thoughts were asking how my son got dengue and fever. I'm thinking of the previous days before my son got dengue. Sure, some people in the internet shop come and go. But, he was not staying in the shop that day. My son was walking around the hospital grounds. He was laughing and chasing around his "Ninong". A woman from neighbourhood told me that the hospital has big trees, grasses and local chickens running around. So, it's a definite haven for mosquitoes and chicken manure. I guess or maybe it's one of the reasons. 

Another findings is my son has amoebiasis. His poop is watery and yellow to golden brown with little particles. It has a foul smell different from normal. I know the cause of this. He's very curious now and want to touch any thing he like even if it's dirty. He is fond of sucking his two fingers from his right hand. So, probably he touch a thing then sucked his fingers. I know it's negligence but I can't watch him all the time for some reason. The best thing for me to do when he gets well is putting a bitter something in his fingers. It's not a mean thing to do. It's a way to stop him from sucking his two fingers.

The hospital has shifting schedules for their resident doctors. But, when another doctor came into the hospital. The hospital has schedules for their resident doctors. He informed us that it's not dengue it's German measles. Automatically, medicines were changed. 

What do we call/shall do when the doctor give us wrong information? Other mommies would give a different reaction. I just accept it and focus more on my son. My son is more important than the doctor.

Previously, I post about our ordeal with my son and my sickness. Last month, we're in the hospital because he has fever and primary complex. I got sick from fever and cough that made me feel like in an orthopaedic bed. I'm not finished writing about it, yet. 

And here we are again, facing another one. We're here in the hospital with another cause of my son's fever. It's only a month difference. I think children are like this. I am worried about his situation and I can't help it. He's having a fever for three days and I thought the cause is the climate change. But, I was wrong! On the third day, rashes were all over his body plus a high fever. So, we rushed him in the hospital at 4am.

Good thing, my sister-in-law and mother-in-law arrived. At least a little burden were taken off my shoulders, though. I know they'll stay for a day because of work. When they saw my son's situation, I saw them crying. I think they were overwhelmed by his situation and pity him.

I hope and pray that my son will get well soonest!