Hi there! Gosh it is 2026 of January and I haven't  had a post about a reflection of my life in the past years.  

At the halfway of the year 2024, I faced a big challenge in my life that involves heartachaes and finances. He had a relationship twice with another woman. He left me for the third party with nothing as in zero. We called it here as "sumakabilang buhay". It means leaving behind the family and live with another woman or man's house. I created a  post on what I learned about it instead of a sob or dramastory. But, I never published it. It remain as a draft that I'll update from time to time.

Writing about my own life is not as easy as it sounds.

It gives me a hard time. Every time I try to write, I feel no spark at all. I sit in front of my computer with a heavy heart and a blank screen. My thoughts are there, but I can’t get them out.

I haven’t posted anything in over three months. I felt like giving up, but deep down, I didn’t want to. Aside from being my bread and butter, I still want to write. Writing is like letting go of the heavy feelings I’ve been carrying. Writing helps me breathe a little easier. Although I did write tidbits in my diary or journal - whatever you call it. Still, it is different from writing on this blog.

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Medical and personal issues aroused due to infidelity made me depressed, aggrieved, stressors, anxious and more. I can hardly handle these issues thats' why I need a breather. 

Do you know that I think of suicide and guns? When my father was alive, he tried to grab the gun from me. The people who are close to me by blood know about it. At least, there's none available. Neither knew of my traumatic experience. I admit that:

April is the fourth month of the year in the Gregorian calendar, the fifth in the early Julian calendar, and the first of four months to have a length of 30 days. April is commonly associated with spring in parts of the Northern Hemisphere and autumn in parts of the Southern Hemisphere. It is the seasonal equivalent to October in the Northern Hemisphere and vice versa.

April was originally the second month of the ancient Roman calendar before January and February were added by King Numa Pompilius about 700 BCE. It became the fourth month of the calendar year (when they show the twelve months) during the time of the decemvirs about 450 BCE when it also was given 29 days. They added the 30th day during the reformat of the calendar undertaken by Julius Caesar in 45 BCE, which produced the Julian calendar.

Each of us faces different struggles during the start of the ECQ or Enhanced Quarantine Period. Pandemic has given me an enormous bogged-me-down personal problem. It has given me pain and anxiety when my partner has another woman that started during the third month of the ECQ in 2020. He asked for an apology, so I forgave him at that time. I thought that he might change and won't do it again.

The Solitaire games are classic and timeless. It brings back good old memories before having a personal computer. As the saying goes, "oldies but goodies". I remember the siblings of my father when they gather together they play mahjong. Amid all the fights and throwing words against each other when they play, it is all loud voices and peals of laughter for winning the game. Ah, I'm a bit nostalgic. Those were the gold old days when I was a little girl back then.

I brought this up, remembering the past because I saw this classic mahjong games website. Honestly, I do not play this game because my father prohibits me from it. It's okay for me. I am happy and contented watching them, my aunts and uncles playing it with happiness.

Blogging had recreated my life after I went downhill. I lost my mother from cervical cancer, no job and penniless. I move out of a boarding house to live with my boyfriend, who's now my partner. At that time, he worked in an Internet shop and had given me a computer to use.

When I start a blog, I have zero knowledge about it. A friend had guided me into it. 

Tattooing a part of my body is not my thing. Although, my cousins and little brother have it, I do not have it. And then something happened in my life that had changed my mind. At that time, my heart is full of pain that I do not know what to do with it.

It so happened that a neighbor asked a Tattoo artist for home service. That's when I decide to have a tattoo. I choose a little broken heart on my right hand. It was like putting all the pain I felt in it.