Dearest Ma,

 

I am sorry I can not visit your grave. And I do not know when :( It is very far from where we are, now. Financial difficulties is one of the reason, though. All I can do is offer a simple prayer for you, everyday.

I wish that someday, I can transfer your remains to Iligan City where your loving nieces and siblings can visit you, anytime.

I'm missing you so much, ma. I love you.

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I have a past relationship that lasted for 15 years. Within that period, I thought the man will never look for a third-party relationship, again. I use my heart instead of my head. Well, most of the time. I never listened even if he's named as the "Battalion Playboy". But, I was wrong! He had a relationship with a 14-year old teen girl.  Three forecaster told me that he had a relationship with another girl, but I am not listening. I pretend to believe.

Yes, our relationship starts to shake from small arguments that becomes a heated one. That little arguments made me wonder why. One of my neighbors knew about it. His cousin's wife knew about it, too. The most painful part is my brother and his family knew about it. The teen girl worked in my brother's house as a helper. I am not sure if my parents knew it too. I am the ONLY one who doesn't know about it.I  knew all about it in my mother's wake last 2008. We separate year 2006 by creating an alibi and arrived here in Manila. Fortunately, I found work and another man. I promised myself, that I'll never return to him.  I think I am naïve or just overlook his movements. I'm busy with my work in an internet shop. That's in the province. My job's affected and I lost it. It's a long story to tell.

As a woman, I believe in intuition. We can sense but I am blind to see the real thing. But, I always dream of a teen girl with the man in my previous relationship. In that dream, I' m battling with a dragon helplessly. While, they are sitting together and looking at me, laughing. When I woke up, I asked why there's no help.

Now, I build a new life together with the new man in my life and our son. But, I dream, again, of the past. I saw this teen girl vividly with a man. I am not sure if that man is the same man I left or the man in my life now. In my dream, I feel the pain and cried, "Not again!. This is my second chance, please don't take it from me!"

Is the past, haunting me? Why am I dreaming this, again?

My son and I both played around in his hospital bed. I would tickle him or sing ABC song. Sometimes, I lay him on the bed and watch him play (e.g. playing bubbles by blowing his lips). On the fourth day in the hospital, I'm watching television while Baby Chrizs play, "Grab a cloth" and tug it with his hands and feet on the bed. Suddenly, I wonder why I hear squeals of delight.

Amid the barrage of injections for pneumonia, Baby Chrizs is very active and strong. His laughter is injectable to my worries. Because of his aliveness, he would bang his right hand (with i-v) into his right hip. That's his way of expressing his delight. Until we noticed that there is a blood inside the catheter in the back of his palm. We called the nurse who informed us that the needle was dislocated. So, they will transfer the insertion in the right foot. Oh gee, another prick in my baby's foot.

His right foot was inserted with another IV. It was not individually wrapped in steel. Instead, it was wrapped with a diaper. In case, he would rub both sides or kick his feet. 

There's my little Astroboy watching his mama taking his photos.

Few days ago, Baby Chrizs had a runny nose, cough and fever. I gave him a paracetamol drops for his fever. After a day, his fever did not subside with a temperature of 38.5°C. His appetite for milk, lessen and eat less on cereals. Immediately, I brought him to the hospital. He's admitted for pneumonia and checked for possible dengue. Fortunately, its negative but we found out that his red blood cells is lower than his white. The doctor has given him Ferlin drops that has Iron and Vitamin B Complex. Also, the doctor had given him three injectable antibiotics. Take a look at the photos:

(1) One skin patch test for allergies on his right arm.

(2) Two skin-patch on his left arm

Today, I opened my inbox and saw one email of a certain Hogan Conor who sent me a tracking number. I immediately opened it and found that it was one of the spam emails of UPS. A fake email, I should say. When I hover it, it shows another link.

 

But when my eyes lay on the email address, my heart beat faster.

The email he used is my Odesk email. Immediately, a question pop into my mind, "Are We Safe in Odesk?".  How about the email/card number used for transacting payment? There are a lot of workers from Odesk. I don't know if they received this kind of email. 

I've been a member in Odesk for years but I'm not an active member. I will take an exam first to make my application for a job unlimited. This is the first time to receive a spam email from them. Will it be possible?

Dearest fellas,

Don't be surprised if you visit my blog in different templates. Every now and then, I'm changing and experimenting different templates I found on the internet. Most of the time, I am tinkering blog designs, reading e-how resources from the internet. I am not a techie and had 2-4 hours online because of my mommy duties. It's a bit difficult to juggle all the things you want to do online but ends up with insufficient time. Don't worry if you can't find the widgets or links, you've been looking for. The pages are there but keep the widgets code in my notepad. You'll see it back when I'm finished.

I received an email about an Account Suspension/Security Reason from 'RCBC'. It says that RCBC will disable my account for security reasons. So, I have to reactivate it NOW by clicking a given link.

Hover your mouse to the link for activation. Attach is a secret link to a fake RCBC site.

  

Now, I click the reply button to see the email of the sender. Please note all the red circles.

 

When I check the RCBC website and look what I found out. A marquee (moving text) warning their customers of the phishing attacks.

 

Be  Careful! When you log in your username and password especially in an online banking. You'll never know, it's a wrong link. As for me, I deleted it and did not bother to click it but share it with you. Why? because I have no account in any bank! It was closed after I lost my work.

Hi folks! Do not be surprise if my post is only one or two a week. I'll be updating my blog posts and widgets. Earn Online has a lot of contests that are closed. So, I will update that post. Maybe rearrange the widgets or delete one of them. Also, I'm looking for a new template for blogspot. Not again! Yea, I can hear it, but what will you do if it's a free template? Only the browsing of free templates takes time and difficult.

On the other hand, I have two blogs in which I won from a raffle! I talked about the new blog on Earn Online but will not keep mum about the second. Both, these blogs has no other post except Hello World . Both needs a Free template for Wordpress. Another thing is I have to travel to Cavite to bring a bag full of cards to post.

So stay tune!

Last Tuesday, I was updating my status to, "Ang lakas ng ulan at hangin... waaaa.. wag sana mawala ang kuryente, pleaseeee" which means "the rain and wind are strong... waaa... I hope the lights will not go out". But after more or less than 30 minutes, lights went off. I didn't move from where I sat because I am carrying my baby who was sleeping that time. My husband use the beam from his cellphone to check on the customers computer usage. Good thing, aside from the computer, we manually record and check their time.

After a few minutes, the hospital's generator was up. We can only use one light and an electric fan. It's okay for us, at least, we have a light to move around. When the customer's gone, my husband swept and mop the floor. Then, he brought out the foam for us to sleep in the middle, among the computers. We have no choice, since our room is totally dark. 

I placed my baby in the foam who was asleep and my husband Chris, settled himself on the other side with a mat. I can't sleep early so, I watched the two boys in my life who are in dreamland. After a few minutes, I feel bored sitting and doing nothing. So, I brought out 2 boxes of clothing to fold to pass the time. 

It's a chore that makes me lazy when computer time eats me. I'm glad the two boys are asleep and no electricity. I can focus and finish this one chore.

This is my entry to the Week 16 of the Techie She Lucky Blogger Weekly Giveaways. This week’s prize is $10 paypal credits from Mel Cole of The Jolly Toes.

He's 6 months and 2 weeks old. I have seen his firsts and milestone in which every mom awaits. Now, he's showing his jolly side like shrieking and an infectious laughter. When his godfather played and pretend he did not see him, he would look at him and squeal with delight. He remembers the people closed to him.

If I place him in bed with his favorite bolster and furry friends, he's starting to play with his hands and babbled. He is so eager to play that he would include his feet to touch the bolster. Gee, I forgot to take a photo of him playing with both his hands and feet. My, my! LIttle Baby has a long tongue. His father and godfather were laughing when he showed them his tongue. Guess, he's playing and discovering things through his tongue, especially that he starts eating his first food.

Sometimes, its annoying to receive spam/scam emails, hate emails from persons you barely know. You want to stop receiving their emails. Here's a guide on how to block an email especially in Yahoo! Below, is a step by step guide with screenshots. FYI, I'm using the new email version Yahoo! 

First, log on to your Yahoo email. Then, in the upper left, next to SIGN-OUT, Click OPTIONS then choose MAIL OPTIONS (circled in red) and CLICK IT.

It's a step-by-step guide as shown in the photo below. So, it'll be easy for you to follow. 

In MAIL OPTIONS tab, click (1)SPAM on the left panel as shown. After clicking it, there are to options to choose. These are (a) SPAMGUARD: Usually, these are scam emails and advertisements who are phishing important details about you. (b) Blocked Email Address: Emails from people you know but hate or from someone you don't want to receive/read in your inbox. So, you want that email "from someone" blocked.

To blocked the email, (2) TYPE the email address in the text box. When you're done, (3) CLICK the Add Button. You can block at least 500 email address! That's a lot,  huh! After you click the add button, you will see it below the text box. It's right there in a rectangular-shape box in which I hide 3 emails to keep their identity . Now that you see the email you want to block in the box, (4) CLICK save changes button, above the word SPAM.

There you go! I hope this will help you out in blocking "unwanted" emails. 

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My baby's gender is always an issue, everyday. You can hear their comments like, "Ayaw pag-ingon ana kay bayot na!". It means, "Do not do that because it's Gay!" (referring) to the third sex. My baby has actions through the use of his hands that moves like a Gay.

As a mother, I want to shout and prove it. He's a baby and does not know what his doing. As a parent, who wants it? Please, don't mislead me as I don't have anything about the third sex generation. I just feel irritated and pissed off by the comments everyday.

Today, my baby is 6 months old. My plan is to celebrate it or take home our favorite Yoshinoya's meal's, from my winnings. Unfortunately, he had a fever and  "halak" (gargling sound in the throat). So, my husband and I decide to cook pansit luglug on his 6-months birthday for longer life.

Since, mommy can not go and leave you! Here's a virtual cake for you, honey. 

Happy 6th-month birthday!

Congratulations Ms. Shamcey Supsup for winning 3rd Place in the recent Ms. Universe 2011 beauty pageant. You have made us, Filipinos proud again. That's another big achievement for the Philippines. We are so proud of you.

Shamcey Supsup is not your ordinary next door girl. She was born on May 16, 1986 in Iligan City. But her family moved and lived in General Santos City. Amid her beauty lies a very intelligent woman who graduated as Salutatorian in Makati High School. A Magna Cum Laude graduate of Architecture in University of the Philippines and ranked no. 1 in Philippine Architectural Board Examination 2010.

This Question and Answer part, I know, will linger for a time in Filipino's mind. 

Question (American Actress Vivica Fox):

As a first time mom, it is difficult to leave my baby to my husband who oversees an internet shop. Second, it's Saturday, peak day where there'll be a lot of customers. Yet, he allowed me to go. It's 12 noon and I'm waiting for him to wake up until 2pm. I know, it'll be a tiring day, that's why I allow him to get more sleep. Besides, he sleeps very late at 4 - 5am especially if there's a broken computer that he needs to reformat.

While waiting, a staff nurse told me that I had a package in the cashier's office. Excited but, the cashier did not arrive yet, so I told her that I'll take a peak. It turned out, the package was on top of the cashier's table near the window with a big hole. I can't stop, so, I let my hand slide in and took the package. ehek! 

The mail came from Sakuraeya Club winnings in promoting Fan page in Facebook. Now, my little white dog has a friend. I put it, together with another cutie dog, on top of the computer monitor.

After that, a staff approached me and asked for my last name! I stand up and he told me that LBC van arrived and looking for Valenzuela. I used two last name and they didn't know that.

Here's what I got, LBC package from sis Eidra - Sansan Lipstick I won from her contest. Thank you so much.

I feel sleepy  watching the i-net shop while my son and husband have a mid-morning catch of sleep. So, I browse youtube for anime episodes and found "Ghost Hunt". This anime is not that scary and it got me glued on my seat. The main character is a paranormal researcher who is a poltergeist. A poltergeist is not a monster but a person who can move objects around him using the power of his mind. But that is not what I am going to share with you. It is the 4th to  a 6th episode that had moved me to tears. Yes, tears easily dropped into my cheeks while watching it.

The 4th to a 6th episode is the second file of Ghost hunt anime. The title of this episode is "Doll House" in which a little girl was talking to her doll. But then they find it weird when the little girl defends and listens to what her doll says. The thing is that the girl only hears what her doll says. The doll is own by a ghost-mom who haunts for her child. 

The ghost mom killed herself when she couldn't bear the thought of losing her one and only little daughter. Her daughter was either taken by a stranger or drowned near a river. 

In the end, Naru, the ghost hunter, decide to give back her little daughter by showing a script in a wood carved and formed like the little child. Then throw it upwards. And told her to get her daughter and leave the place.

Suddenly, the wood turned into a golden yellow of a child who giggles with arms spread running for her mother's hug.

When the ghost mom saw it, her face was changed from gloomy to a surprised mom longing for her child and spread her arms to catch her.

When the ghost touched her child, she was changed into a shining gold yellow that pertains to happiness and satisfaction; hug her child tightly and vanished. Then, the ghosts of little children she took were laughing all vanished.

This is my first to join the Top Ten Emerging Influential Blogs for 2011. This big event is on its 5th year. It is a writing project as organized by Ms. Janet Toral, that identifies the Top Ten Emerging Influential Blog for 2011. Without further adieu, here's my official entry and they are as follows:

1. Levyousa - I loved reading this blog. Sometimes, at the end of her post, it sent me giggling because she does not forget to insert her post with funny notes. She blogs about her personal life, views, tips and information about her surroundings.

2. Certified Foodies - This blog owners by Mhel and Ken who are both siblings. What I love from this blog is that they share honest opinions and experiences on a certain food from their food trips. 

3. Painted Lips - a fashion blog of Pehpot. Amid the hectic schedule for being a mom, she finds a way to make herself beautiful and fashionable.

4. Mom Writes - another mommy blog who share's her thoughts, favorites and memories of being one happy family amid her hectic schedules.

5. Green Living Ideas - a mom and advocate for Green Living Environment. She share's her own ideas, information and tips on green living.

6. The Pepperific Life - A personal blog of a single mom who shares her adventures and struggles and joy on raising her daughter single-handed.

7. Notepad Corner - Another personal blog who juggles and share her experiences on being a stay-at-home mom, a mother and a housewife.

8. Mommy Survival Guide - Being a mom is not a piece of cake. We need a lot of patience and sacrifices. For a first time mom, here's a blog that guides and share some tips/information on how to survive being a mom.

9. Tottering Mama - This blog had inspired or influenced me. This mom share's her tips, ideas and value-formation on her two children - her tots.

As I get older, I understand that people would come and go out of your life. Little did they know, when they cross my path and touch my life, they left a mark that I saved in my heart. It is touch by sharing ideas and giving me opportunity to drive on. I am really thankful of what they share into my life, though. Sometimes, I keep quiet and lost them without knowing what they have left. It will never happen again, as I am going to post this gratitude in my heart.

I have to say it with my deepest gratitude to Mhel who shared her knowledge in online income. Also, for giving me a short-term job where I needed and loved most. You're the answer to my prayer. I am very, very thankful.

Everyday, especially when I woke up in the mid-morning, I always pray and ask God, what to do? My baby is growing up fast. He sleeps in his hammock. Sometimes, he slides and both his legs dangle in the hammock still sleeping. As a mother, it worries me, seeing my son in that situation. That's one reason why I need a crib for my baby. But how? Where will I get the money to buy a crib? His dad's salary isn't enough. I asked God for guidance because I do not know what to do.

An unverified account of PayPal has a withdrawal limit of $500 only. That's personal account because I have no idea for the premier account. I heard about how to verify PayPal and its instruction. Also, I read from online resources about withdrawals from PayPal to Philippine bank. I thought I understand the process. My thoughts, betray me and I laughed about it. I thought all along that you can verify your PayPal account with the Philippine banks. That is wrong. Sorry to those who asked me, I am wrong.

Open an EON Debit Card in Union Bank Philippines
It is a debit card and bank account in one. As far as I know, that's the only BANK allowed by PayPal to verify aside from credit cards. How to verify PayPal? Check this website, "Make Money Online: Verify Your PayPal Account Using Unionbank EON". Just make sure that all the information entered in EON Debit card is the same information you entered on PayPal.You can also use Smart Money Card to verify PayPal. I will not recommend it unless you are an active smart money card user. Smart Money card expires for prepaid accounts. For those interested, click this: Make Money Online: Verify Your Account Using Smart Money.

My eyes are not good this past days. It tends to feel heavy after staring at the computer for 3 - 4 hours. It makes me drowsy and a little swooning because of sleepiness.. It seems I am lack of sleep for a day or two. If I take a sleep, I end up waking at 7am with the computer running. I have a cup of coffee on the left and bottled water on my right. But, still, I feel drowsy even as of this writing. Oh, what's happening with my eyes? Do you know?

Yes, I am not feeling well since, yesterday. I have runny nose and headache. When that triggers, it's sinusitis. I'm sneezing most of the time. As of this moment, I usually stop and cross my arms because I am feeling cold. I know I need a rest, like sleeping the whole day is heavenly. I will only stop if my head aches and my eyes can no longer bear to read the lines on the screen. 

What worries me the most is my son. If I have a fever, I can not hold or carry him in my arms. My husband has it, too. He sneeze or we both sneeze while we carry our son. That is not good. 

August is a lucky month for me because I won several giveaways.

Sakuraeya's Club, a Fan Page in Facebook for contest, updates, promos and freebies -  I'm the 2nd winner of promoting her fan page but I have no idea what I won. ahahaha.

 

I'm wandering around the internet for a green dress especially for a big and "curvacious" body like mine. No fretting, please! There's no special event to attend, I'm only dreaming :) and what if it will suddenly happen? I don't like to panic if someone will invite me into their wedding with nothing to wear on their special day.

And I found it! It's an Ella Moss V-Neck Green Dress. I think this one suits me. I am not into spaghetti style straps and sleeveless kind of girl. The lantern sleeves are okay with a v neck showing a little of your treasure.

I can imagine, myself,  wearing this dress, if only you invite me!