Last night, I saved a link and a title for today's post. Words were flowing in my mind that night but I did not bother to write it down or type and saved it as a draft. My thoughts said, "mamaya na lang" and do other online tasks, instead. I thought I can remember the words that flowed in my mind, again. But then, I was wrong. I faced the computer, blank. No creative juices flow. My mind is wandering on something else. Aside from it, I feel sleepy.

It seems I've done nothing right, today. Ah, that "mamaya ka lang" or mañana habit which means "will do it later" will stop. If not, there will be no productions and cash backs! I learn my lesson.

Yesterday, I was googling "Walk Through Life" to check what page my website will show up. I found another site with the same title but differs with the url. Also, I stumbled an inspiring poem by Emily Adams entitled "As I Walked Through Life" and here's the poem:

I've learned-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-
that you should always leave
loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned-
that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I've learned-
that either you control your
attitude or it controls you.

I've learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be
angry, but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.

I've learned-
that just because someone doesn't love you the
way you want them to doesn't mean they
don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once
in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to
be forgiven by others,
Sometimes you have to learn
to forgive yourself.

I've learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn't
mean they don't love each other.

I've learned-
that two people can look at
the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

What do you think? The poem is inspiring and I loved every stanzas. It's the reality of our thoughts!

I've been worried because Baby Chrizs has fallen off from our bed for the fourth time. I admit, it was negligence on the part of his father twice. Glad, he stumbled and hit the pillow on the floor. He's 8th months and very energetic! When he sleep, we placed him on the bed with big pillows on his side and a chair at the edge of the bed. Sometimes, I slept with him but when it happened, no one's around. He wakes up, move and crawls toward a certain object that caught his eye in silence.

This is the reason, I am dying to buy a crib for him. The crib is not only convenient for parents who do other things in the house. It prevents the fall of a baby who wakes up suddenly and crawled around in silence. I want to rant for the money from an online job that never came for months. It's annoying and depressing!

Anyway, my baby's godfather who's a hospital trustee had lend us the hospital crib. It's made of steel and look like a newborn crib to me. The crib is not wide but good enough for him to sleep. The railings are taller than my baby, so it's convenient. We'll satisfy ourselves with the hospital crib for the moment and worry later for the hospital owner's knowledge.

I went out of the kitchen and saw two men standing in the Pediatrics' door. One man said, "wala na!" which means, there's no hope. Out of curiosity, I peek at the door and saw a mother who turned her back on the child and cried. When I looked at the child, my heart's crushed. I pity him. His eyes are not blinking and blank. The child has a high fever and convulsing. His nose has an oxygen tube to help him breath.

Three more weeks and it's Christmas! Do you have a list of christmas wish, all ready? That's good! Make sure, you give a bright smile to your godfathers and godmothers, as well. Make them hear you out loud!

Anyway, I created my list, too. Most of the things are for my baby and these are:

1. Crib

I'm really dying to buy a crib for my baby. It doesn't matter if the crib is not branded as long as it's wide like the photo above. I prefer a pre-loved or christmas discounts because it's cheaper compared to regular prices. First, baby is very active, now. He likes to explore, crawl, kick, stand and slap both his hands like a tom-tom. He sleeps but wakes up in 20 mins when no one is sleeping with him. We're not around to look after him all the time especially when he's asleep. To be honest, he falls thrice, though. I am afraid of the effects mentally and emotionally on his fall. Glad his Angel is always there to catch him! Twice, the big pillow falls first and baby tumbles on it.

2. Cellphone

I think it's 2 - 3 years, that the key pad of my cell phone is broken. That's why, it's difficult for me to reply to messages sent to my cell phone. What I do is, I use Chikka, an online sms or borrow someone else's cellphone and create a message. The service charge for a broken key pad of a Nokia 7310 Super Nova is P800 to P1,000 pesos. I'm completely satisfied with my cell phone, keypad is the only problem! So, sponsors, I'm ringing your bell! :)

3. Baby Toys

Third wish, toys for my baby that stimulates his mind and fun in learning. It's christmas, there were a lot of bazaars and malls who offers sales and big discounts for this month. Wish I can buy one or two for my baby. Pre-loved toys is my second choice.