So yeah, it's a holiday weekend. 4th of July... Independence Day... whatever you want to call it. But it is an Emo day for me: A lot of problems fall on this day but I am working on it to yank it back. :)

What are you doing on July 5th?
In Philippines? I'm washing clothes. Got a laundry? :D

Have you ever known anyone who has been kidnapped?

Does wiping with newspaper make you a smartass?
No! How will that be if you only use it to wipe not reading... :D

If someone sends you - or you stumble upon a link that will show you celebrity death photos, do you click the link?
Yes if that celebrity is my favorite :D. Besides, they are photos only not a zombieee .. ^_^

Do you decorate your computer/laptop?

You see Bud and his lady out walking in a park... suddenly she stops and kicks him square in the ass. What did he say to her?  
Eww... why are you licking me?


There is a cockroach, a tarantula and a mouse in the room - which one do you kill first?
Cockroach because it smells bad and kept on flying

Did you know that a hay bale can start on fire by itself? Do you know how?
No. Oh, I don't know, do you?

Kimber calls you - what is her voice like?
Tiny, freaking voice that's eerie to hear

Have you ever played Battleship?
No.

Days of our Lives paid tribute to Francis Reid/Alice Horton this week

Is there someone in your life that you strive to be like?
Yes, that's ME :)

Do you attend parades?

If Berleen were to purchase three 10-gallon tubs of the peanut butter that they use at Dairy Queens, would you think any less of her?
No, I don't think less of her because they need it for ingredients. Berleen told me... hehehe

If all the flowers but one kind withered and died, never to grow again, but that one kind of flower would grow worldwide forever, what would you want the surviving flower to be?
Sunflower to give us all the sunshine in all our lives..

One of my friends has shared a link in my Facebook Profile. But when I saw it, I asked her what it was. As it turned out, she does not know about it. Probably, this is some kind of virus that gets the name in your friend's list and post the link without the user's knowledge.

The link is about an Apple Iphone promotional item. It shows a photo of an Apple Iphone with a link that says Facebook: Apple Iphone Promotional Give-away. I am sorry I forgot to print screen it. I am fond of giveaways, I checked it out. But then, this is what I saw:


It's asking me to log-in, into my Facebook account. But, I am and that's weird. WAIT!! Check out the URL below:



The link shown here is http://error-facebook.com/b1/b1int/ (I remove the link, if you want to see it, just copy and paste into url address).

That is not the URL of Facebook! Whatever page you go clicking and browsing using Facebook, the url always look like this: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php? with a series of alphanumeric characters.

You be the judge because I haven’t thought of this word that describes me.

A woman told me today that I have a high pride. Oh, is it? I’ve forgotten about the past pains, hurt and all the bad goodies in the world in which I pushed in one bag and throw it out of my life. It’s all about forgetting and starting a new life ahead.

Until a call came, it was a call from a woman... Old wounds revived and tried to wiggle its way up again.

I was outcast from my brother’s house. Both my father and brother are angry with me. I don’t know where my brother’s anger came from against me. He was very angry that he wants to throw a punch on me but pull it. Also, my father was angry against me because of the other woman. I defend my mother who is bedridden against my father. I defend that illiterate teen that doesn’t finish elementary education against my father. I understand her illiteracy and teach her in a way that she understands. But father was perfectionist! I tried to explain and reach my brother’s understanding. But some of the words I uttered were reiterated against me. I keep my mouth shut because I know; I can do nothing to change it. It is my youngest brother’s word against mine.

If he hears those hearsays, let that person come forward and let’s talk, like a tête-à-tête. We are civilized and educated; we’re not a child anymore. But, no foot came forward. It was like everyone was angry and I am a black dog. It chocked me. I decided to go back to Manila even if it was a gamble. I doubt if I can work again.

To make it short, I didn’t find a job while staying in one of the boarding house in Pasay. I feel desperate and very depressed until I decided to move out of that place. It was an accessible place in looking for work. But it is also making a big hole in my pocket; drained my savings.

Moving out was the biggest decision I made. Acceptance is a value that I learned; I can not have a company job anymore. Aside from my age (out of the calendar), my English is not perfect for an international call center company. Sometimes, I stammered and I have difficulty pronouncing the TH and F sounds.

The pain is gone but the scars are left. The painful situations had taught me a lesson. My mind is at peace. I had forgotten all about it until that call. A woman’s call telling me what had happened with my brother’s life and father’s vices. I told her, I can’t do anything about it. My brother has money; he has the power against me who has nothing. All I can do is pray and offer it to Him. She ended the call by asking me to warn my father against those vices. She added something that distressed me, again. Sorry, I can not tell you what it was. If it's true, he's the son and I believe in Karma. Whatever father had done, he was still the father and old now. If it is not, God I know you hear it! Sadly, I can not do anything about it.

Am I too proud? Is it pride?