I'm Crushed!

July 11, 2011

I am crushed like an ice splintered into pieces! Since, we don't have internet connection in almost 3 days, I wrote it on a paper. But what happened! Here I am looking at the monitor, wondering if it's right to publish it here.

Honestly, it bothers me and had given me sleepless nights. It's a deduction from my husbands pay! He was deducted from the water and electricity, my son and I used. It means we are not FREE. The only person who can freely use water, electricity is my husband. He's an employee.

The net pay bothers me more, it's only $19.78 for 15 days. From that amount, I am thinking of my son. Can we handle his needs or how can we sustain his needs? Gosh, I think a lot and there's a little sound of fear in there. My son is growing up and as a baby he has a lot of needs. On the other hand, we can not afford to rent a house because his pay is insufficient. Perhaps, you won't see me online doing this. That leaves me with no choice.

I pray that we both can. Also, I'm hoping, I can find a way to help him augment his income for our baby!

Can't Help Staring at My Baby

July 5, 2011

When I'm in the room where my baby sleeps in his hammock. I can not help myself from staring at my baby's face. Oh, he looks so adorable and handsome! My heart is swelling with love for my baby. Tears start to get in the way of looking at my son. How I wish my mother is alive and hold him dear.

How I wish I can hug and hold my baby from time to time. But, your mom is always on the net and I have to leave your room. I have to do it, baby. Because I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I want the best for you. It doesn't matter if I am going to beg as long as it is for you.

When Baby Had a Fever

Baby had his first fever when he got his second month vaccine. He was almost 2 months, then. His second vaccine is dpt and polio. The center did not warned us and I don't have the knowledge either. The injection area in his leg turned red and began to swell. He started crying and doesn't want me to touch that area. We were advised to put a small cloth wet with lukewarm water over the swelling area. In that way, it will stop the swelling.

Night time my son's temperature went up to 38celsius. Of course, I feel nervous but did not show it. Good thing we bought Paracetamol Oral drops for his fever in daytime. I gave him 0.3ml as prescribed by a doctor. Then, give a lukewarm sponge on his leg.

The next day, his fever went down but still he keep on crying because of the fever. How it breaks my heart to hear him cry and see him in that situation. He's still a baby. Good thing he's fine within 2 days.

When fever strikes, I know what to do!