Have you experienced binat?

February 10, 2013

Yes, I experienced it - December, last year. What do you mean by "binat"? Binat is a filipino word coined for relapse. Usually, this is what our folks says especially, if you give birth. Here's an example from an online Tagalog English Dictionary - "Huwang masyadong magpagod, baka ka mabinat!" Don't tire yourself, you might have a relapse.

I wish I know until when I have the time to rest after miscarriage. I can't wait to lay a hand on our dirty clothes piling high! And yes, I did, the laundry after a week of rest! Next day, I hang all the clothes outside because the weather is hot. After, I've done it, I sat down and my body feel extremely tired. There is no headache or anything painful. It's only tiredness, I feel. My husband told me to take a rest because I might have a relapse. What I did was sleep the whole day. Then, woke up when it's time for a meal. I made a rest for three days. It's a lazy thing to do but I have to regain back my strength for my son.

How about you? Have you experienced relapse?

Thank You 2012 and Welcome 2013!

February 2, 2013

Year 2012 for us has a lot of obstacles and breathless trials. My son is sickly, almost every month. He has primary complex – tuberculosis for children. He got dengue and viral infections. Whenever he had a fever, my husband and I cross our fingers that he’ll recover in three days. For toddlers, if it’s more than 3 days, something is not right.

While, I had a miscarriage – the baby was 7 weeks old. She has no heart beat. After 2 weeks, I thought I am okay so I went out and do the laundry. But after, I hung the clothes to dry in the clothes line. I feel so terribly tired that my husband told me to take a rest. Guess, I have a relapse or “binat”. Is this the exact word?

Even if we had experience these in 2012, it was retracted. We celebrated New Year with my MIL and SIL. In addition, my son is in good health. That is why I am very, very thankful. We faced 2013 with a smile and noise from a trumpet and my son’s playing his toy drum.

Happy 2013!!

January 1, 2013

Happy 2013 to everyone!!

I'm so thankful that my family and I, amid the pitfulls in our life, celebrated and welcome 2013 with good health. Most important is my child who welcome it with laughter while watching fireworks.

Tales of My Miscarriage I

December 11, 2012

Once again, I never knew I'm pregnant. I feel like in a deep slumber awaken by a good and bad news. No, I am not defending myself because it's the truth.

Before I knew I'm pregnant, I keep on asking my husband for soft-drinks and other snacks. Although, he yield to my whim but whenever I asked for a Coke, he'll bring and give me a Sprite soda, instead. As a pregnant woman, that's very annoying and fun for him! I'm sickly. I have runny nose that leads to sinusitis which I pop in one tab of Neozep. I have a watery loose bowel movement. Then, I don't know why I stare at a glass of wine that makes me thirsty and lick my lips. Until words come out, I asked a guy friend to give me a sip.

It is odd that I heard a sound of a so-called night bird ("wakwak" in Cebuano) when I get into the comfort room outside the internet shop. In some provinces, we thought of it as a witch turned to a night bird lurking around especially for pregnant women. According to tales, a baby in a mother's womb smells fragrant and sweet.

Usually, my son play around my tummy. He jumps and play like a horse while sitting on it. The day he played around, I feel a hard thing on my womb, trying to turn around. Immediately, I stop my son from playing in my tummy and tried to get up. That movement in my womb had awaken me from a deep slumber. It made me think of my menstruation and its date. Usually, my menstruation starts first week or end of the month. The only month I remember it's visit is September. I'm not sure if I have it in October because in November, I had none. I become suspicious and asked for my husband to buy a home pregnancy kit.

When my husband bought the home pregnancy kit. Immediately, I went to the comfort room to get a small amount of my urine. Then, I open the Home Pregnancy Kit which consists of a Pipette, 1 test device and a desiccant. Then, I suctioned a small amount of urine and drop some of it in the sample well of the test device. The test window will absorb the urine and shows if it's positive or negative. I stared while it absorbs the urine sample. It shows only one line which I thought it's negative but I was wrong. Looks like, it gives a space for another line.... I AM PREGNANT!